A missing part of me that grows around me like a cage

The lenses inside of me that paint the world black
The pools of poison, the scarlet mist, that spill over into rage
The things I’ve always been denied
An early promise that somehow died
A missing part of me that grows around me like a cage

Some days were dark
I wish that I could live it all again
Some nights were bright
I wish that I could live it all again

All the highlights of that headlong flight
Holding on with all my might
To what I felt back then
I wish that I could live it all again

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All the treasures
The gold and glory
It didn’t always feel that way
I don’t regret it
I never forget it
I wouldn’t trade tomorrow for today

All I know is that memory can be too much to carry

Many journeys end here,
But the secret’s told the same.
Life is just a candle,
And a dream must give it flame.

It went right by me,
At the time it went over my head
I was looking out the window
I should have looked at your face instead.

It went right by me,
Just another wall
There should have been a moment
When we let our barriers fall
I never meant what you’re thinking…
That’s not what I meant at all.

Well I guess we all have these feelings
We can’t leave unreconciled
Some of them burned on our ceilings
Some of them learned as a child

The things that we’re concealing
Will never let us grow
Time will do its healing
You’ve got to let it go

Closed for my protection
Open to your scorn
Between these two directions
My heart is sometimes torn

I lie awake with my secrets
Spinning around my head
Something that somehow escaped me
Something you shouldn’t have said
I was looking out the window
I should have looked at your face instead.

Well I guess we all have these feelings
We can’t leave unreconciled
Some of them burned on our ceilings
Some of them learned as a child

I find no absolution
In my rational point of view
Maybe some things are instinctive
But there’s one thing you could do
You could try to understand me
I could try to understand you.
You could try to understand me
I could try to understand you.

It was long after midnight
When we got to unconditional love
She said “Sure, my heart is boundless
But don’t push my limits too far.”
I said “If love was so transcendent
I don’t understand these boundaries.”
She said “Just don’t disappoint me,
You know how complex women are.”

I’ll be around
If you don’t let me down too far
I’ll be around
If you don’t let me down

It was just before sunrise
When we started on traditional roles
She said “Sure, I’ll be your partner
But don’t make too many demands.”
I said “If love has these conditions,
I don’t understand those songs you love.”
She said “This is not a love song
This isn’t fantasy land.”

Don’t go too far
A phosphorescent wave on a tropical sea is a cold fire
Don’t cross the line
The pattern of moonlight on the bedroom floor is a cold fire
Don’t let me down
The flame at the heart of a pawnbroker’s diamond is a cold fire
Don’t break the spell
The look in your eyes as you head for the door is a cold fire

I’ll be around
If you don’t push me down too far
I’ll be around
If you don’t push me down

Love is blind if you are gentle
Love can turn to a long, cold burn…